Daniel Bedingford - If You're Not The One

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine than why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you than why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you than why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you than why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me than why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me than why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you than why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, wether it's wrong or right
And 'though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you than why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?
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Heard this song today, and I find myself identifying with it.
At least a part of me does, gettin' real hard to organize my thoughts because of the 4hrs. of sleep I've been averagin the past few weeks due to insomnia.
Way too much shit in my head.
Alcohol helps clear some of it up.

I'm not happy.
Neither is 80% of the people on my buddy list.
Damn you Bush.

To the seven people that have been there that have given me their support:
Thank you.

The Random Quote:
"I'm ghetto, I don't scrap over the phone." - Anonymous